Romeo, Romeo, where for art thou Romeo? I don't know...haven't got that far yet!!

So I've had a pretty amazing few days...or should I say weeks. I won't go over the past weeks, don't worry, cuz I don't have time b/c it's going on 9:30 PM already and I have an English midterm tmo in Shakespeare that I haven't started studying for yet b/c i just got in from class. AHHH! lol...no, life is just weird, u know? lol...

So I've had a revelation. I don't know why it had to be a revelation b/c it is the very essence of the Christian life, but I'm going to tell you what I experienced yesterday regardless!! So there I was sitting at my computer yesterday and all of a sudden two words ran through my head: "fear" and "trembling." I knew it was from one of Paul's letters, so I looked one of the words up in my handy dandy concordance and sure enough, Philippians 2:12 said, "Just as you have always obeyed...continue living out your salvation with fear and trembling." Cool. But why had I thought about THAT verse? I felt God prompt me that it was Him who had put that verse in my head. So I figured I would continue reading. Sure enough, the NEXT VERSE said, "for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose." WOW. Isn't that a relief? It's not us AT ALL!!! God works in SPITE of my own agenda even though His is divine and will ultimately be executed despite of me!!! In light of the past few weeks, this verse encapsulates all I was beginning to really understand. My prayer now, is that I won't lost this insight. It's so easy to NOT surrender our lives--what God has given us in the first place!!--but it's so easy once we have! WOW...if you need more details I'll be happy to letcha know more about what prompted me to reach this conclusion.

Well even though I'm thrilled at the outcome of these past few days because of something a good friend of mine has done (YAY!!!), I feel like crawling into bed and going to sleep and not waking up till the weekend. This week is insane already. I'm just to the point where I have SO much work ahead of me I don't know where to start and when to stop pushing myself! lol...whatta sob-story, I know, but I'm feeling pretty physically drained. I get about 6 hours or less of sleep per night b/c I work until I literally fall asleep over a book or my computer keyboard, then I get up about 5.5-6 hours later only to work all day again!! wow...I think a good cry would do me some good. It's not that I'm sad, just would be yet another good way to procrastinate and release some of those...whatever they are's that make you cry! lol...

Grandpa's still not doing so well. I haven't heard today, but for the first time since he's been in the hospital (December) the nurse called dad's cell yesterday telling him that Grandpa was having the roughest day yet. We weren't called in or anything, but I guess my prayer now is that he won't be in pain. ahhhh...life's rough sometimes...I complain about being so busy with school and stuff, and often wonder where my priorities are--should I be in seeing Grandpa even if visitors are stressing him out physically? Or am I just using that as an excuse to sit in my room at my computer working on a paper that has no eternal significance at all? Wow. Active minds never let a person be bored, that's for sure!!!

ANYWAY, Romeo and Richard III are calling as I have a midterm in the morning as previously mentioned. Sorry this email is not so uplifting. Don't get me wrong, I'm really really really happy, but am kinda overwhelmed with some things God is doing in my life, not to mention the literal MOUNDS of homework piled around me. Now I am going to read about the suicide of 2 young lovers and about the murder of a power-hungry murderer. Wow. What have I gotten myself into?! lol...

Ciao for now!

PS---KATE!!! here's your chance to reply and vent!! lol...go hard!